Indifferent towards life

I’ve been watching a lot of media lately involving the September 11th plane hijackings in 2001, with a sort-of obsessive morbid fascination with the details. As much as I hate to admit it, a part of me feels some satisfaction in seeing the destruction unfold on the seemingly perfect lives of people who likely have […]

Me today

I’ve been considering posting more lately. I think it might be a good way for me to make some sense of my memories when they come, and how they might be impacting my current day-to-day life. I’ve spent a lot of time picking at my skin today. Mostly my arms and chest, sometimes my face. […]

I finally ended it

After almost 6 years of a tumultuous relationship experience with a former counsellor, I have finally ended it. I sought this counsellor out at a time in my life where I desperately needed some external supports in my life. I had left my husband of 7 years a year before, I had two children under […]

I’m so tired…

I feel so very tired tonight. Tired of fighting the constant battle in my head. Tired of absorbing all the fears and hopes and worries and pain of those around me. Tired of the confusion that seems to be ever-present in my questioning mind, making what should be the most basic of decisions become like […]

Dear Lord…

I’m lying here in my bed, surprised by how organized I have managed to be tonight. My kids are also in their beds ( which is a miracle because usually I am arguing with them about NOT sleeping in mine), and I’m giving myself a little pep-talk before I close my eyes: “C’mon, you can […]